So in the past week I have had a horrible sinus infection, severe back pain, and a yeast infection from hell (sorry for the TMI) !!!!!!
Maybe it's just coincidence, but I can't help but feel like my body has fallen apart since I stopped the Met.
My sugar cravings are back in full force. Now I know that is from going off the Met. I can't wait until the next 2 months are over and I can start the clinical trial. At least then I will feel like this is worth it.
After my DR's appointment I had considered purchasing a scale. I was sooo excited about losing 15 lbs and wanted to watch the rest fall off. I am so glad that I didn't!! I'm sure I have probably gained some if not most of that back. Oh well. Maybe once I feel better I can get back on track. NO!! I have to and I WILL get back on track.....once I feel better.
My jelly bean
Thursday, August 25, 2011
A baby for the low, low price of $300.00
So Mr. Wonderful isn't accepting the other job. This is actually a wonderful thing. His current employer refused to accept his resignation and instead went to the board and asked what they would approve to try and retain him. He was able to counter the other offer with the same amounts that they were going to pay him. It actually works out so much better for us because he won't have to pay more for gas to drive an additional 40 miles per day, or pay an additional $200 a pay for health insurance, or have to start paying 5% into his retirement. At the moment the employer contributes to it and he is not required to contribute anything.
Needless to say that I was very excited about him staying where he is until.....yesterday. His employment package for the other place came in the mail. We opened it and looked at it just see what all of their benefits were. I got to the medical coverage part and started reading it. At the very bottom there it was under Family Planning..... Infertility treatment - artificial insemination, surgical treatment -four per lifetime - you pay $300.00.
Seriously?!? Our current insurance doesn't cover ANYTHING!!!! But we only pay $120/pay for health insurance. At the other place we would have to pay $324/pay....almost the entire pay increase would have gone to paying for the insurance. Logically this makes perfect sense. We are coming out ahead if he stays where is at...but at the same time I feel like reading that part was saying: "A BABY FOR ONLY $300" Realistically I know that is not the case, but I can't help but wonder......
I know that he made the right choice to stay where he is. The schedule is better, and he will bring home enough money for me to continue to be a SAHM. And with the extra money, we will be able to save money to pay for treatments in the future.
So for now, he will stay where he is, we will continue on track for the clinical trial, and hopefully things will get better financially for us very soon.
Needless to say that I was very excited about him staying where he is until.....yesterday. His employment package for the other place came in the mail. We opened it and looked at it just see what all of their benefits were. I got to the medical coverage part and started reading it. At the very bottom there it was under Family Planning..... Infertility treatment - artificial insemination, surgical treatment -four per lifetime - you pay $300.00.
Seriously?!? Our current insurance doesn't cover ANYTHING!!!! But we only pay $120/pay for health insurance. At the other place we would have to pay $324/pay....almost the entire pay increase would have gone to paying for the insurance. Logically this makes perfect sense. We are coming out ahead if he stays where is at...but at the same time I feel like reading that part was saying: "A BABY FOR ONLY $300" Realistically I know that is not the case, but I can't help but wonder......
I know that he made the right choice to stay where he is. The schedule is better, and he will bring home enough money for me to continue to be a SAHM. And with the extra money, we will be able to save money to pay for treatments in the future.
So for now, he will stay where he is, we will continue on track for the clinical trial, and hopefully things will get better financially for us very soon.
Monday, August 15, 2011
CD 3
Thats right...AF showed her ugly face the other day. On the bright side it was with out Provera again!!!!! At least something is working the way it should. Now the question is will I ovulate on my own this cycle??
It would great if I could get pregnant with out medication. I guess we will just have to wait and see what happens.
So I am finishing up my prescription of Metformin. I only have 1 or 2 days left. I am not going to refill it. We have decided to try the clinical trial. So I will be med free for 2 months...a little exciting...but mostly scary. What if my body stops working again....What if I gain the measly 15 lbs back that I have lost....What if I stop having my period.....What if I get pregnant on my own????? So many "WHAT IFS"...
I have often given the advice to others that you can't waste time worrying about the "what ifs" and to think about the "what ares"..... this is much easier said than done. I suppose this is just another thing that I have work on about myself.
On another note, I started walking yesterday. Mr. Wonderful was taking Doodle fishing at the lake and they were going to be leaving at 5 AM. I woke up to my alarm at 6 AM to take my temp and couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to get up and go for a walk. After getting dressed, I came down stairs and heard the two of them still here having breakfast together. I decided to go with them and go for a walk on the new nature path down by the river. We have gone bike riding there in the early spring. It is about 1 mile long and beautiful. We get to the dam and Mr. Wonderful and Doodle go out to start fishing and I head to the trail. It started off pretty well. I had a great pace going, was working on my breathing so that I could maintain that pace and I was feeling great......then......the damn mayflies started attacking me!!!!! It was horrible. They are such persistent little buggers!!! I started swinging my arms to keep them away but they just kept coming back. I had walked about 3/4 of a mile and had to turn back. I was actually pretty disappointed I didn't get to keep going. I guess I will just walk the street at the house for a few more weeks. Hopefully, the mayflies will be gone in a few weeks and I can start walking down there every once in a while.
Other than the mayflies, yesterday was a great day. We all came back and took a nap. Doodle in her bed and Mr. Wonderful and I on the couch snuggling!! Then we had a delicious steak dinner, prepared by yours truly!!
Today is payday, which means that I have to grocery shopping. What Fun!! Why is it so expensive to eat healthy?!? I hate spending so much money on fresh veggies and fruit that will most likely go bad before all of it can be eaten. But, it is much healthier than eating frozen packaged garbage...but shouldn't it be the other way around. I would think that the pre-packaged junk with all the extra additives and stuff would cost more than the fresh stuff. Oh well.
It would great if I could get pregnant with out medication. I guess we will just have to wait and see what happens.
So I am finishing up my prescription of Metformin. I only have 1 or 2 days left. I am not going to refill it. We have decided to try the clinical trial. So I will be med free for 2 months...a little exciting...but mostly scary. What if my body stops working again....What if I gain the measly 15 lbs back that I have lost....What if I stop having my period.....What if I get pregnant on my own????? So many "WHAT IFS"...
I have often given the advice to others that you can't waste time worrying about the "what ifs" and to think about the "what ares"..... this is much easier said than done. I suppose this is just another thing that I have work on about myself.
On another note, I started walking yesterday. Mr. Wonderful was taking Doodle fishing at the lake and they were going to be leaving at 5 AM. I woke up to my alarm at 6 AM to take my temp and couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to get up and go for a walk. After getting dressed, I came down stairs and heard the two of them still here having breakfast together. I decided to go with them and go for a walk on the new nature path down by the river. We have gone bike riding there in the early spring. It is about 1 mile long and beautiful. We get to the dam and Mr. Wonderful and Doodle go out to start fishing and I head to the trail. It started off pretty well. I had a great pace going, was working on my breathing so that I could maintain that pace and I was feeling great......then......the damn mayflies started attacking me!!!!! It was horrible. They are such persistent little buggers!!! I started swinging my arms to keep them away but they just kept coming back. I had walked about 3/4 of a mile and had to turn back. I was actually pretty disappointed I didn't get to keep going. I guess I will just walk the street at the house for a few more weeks. Hopefully, the mayflies will be gone in a few weeks and I can start walking down there every once in a while.
Other than the mayflies, yesterday was a great day. We all came back and took a nap. Doodle in her bed and Mr. Wonderful and I on the couch snuggling!! Then we had a delicious steak dinner, prepared by yours truly!!
Today is payday, which means that I have to grocery shopping. What Fun!! Why is it so expensive to eat healthy?!? I hate spending so much money on fresh veggies and fruit that will most likely go bad before all of it can be eaten. But, it is much healthier than eating frozen packaged garbage...but shouldn't it be the other way around. I would think that the pre-packaged junk with all the extra additives and stuff would cost more than the fresh stuff. Oh well.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
What's Next??
Well I have been MIA for a while. So much has been going on. I finished my last cycle of Clomid. Yet another failed attempt. BFN yesterday morning and negative blood test from Dr. today. :( So where do I go from here?
I went to the OB yesterday to talk about the next step and how the last 3 months had gone. I got some good news and some not so good news. I will start with the positive....
The Metformin is WORKING!!! I have lost 15 pounds!!! So exciting. I didn't really think it was doing much so when I got on the scale and saw what it said I was elated!!! So much so that when they took my blood pressure it was too high. I had to take a few breaths and calm down for them to take it again. Thankfully it was back to normal a few minutes later. The Dr. said that another sign that it was working was that I got AF all on my own last month!
More good news is that she said I can do the clinical trial. But she would rather see me go to an RE. She said that since I want to get pregnant...like yesterday... my best option for making that happen would be to see an RE. Time wise I can understand that....financial wise I can't do it. Insurance won't cover it.
Bad news is that I'm not pregnant now. I haven't been that emotional this cycle, until today. I have been crying off and on all day. I'm not really sure why, I didn't expect for it to be positive since my temps had been dropping the last few days, but hearing the nurse say that my results were less than 1 and I am definitely not pregnant sent my emotions spiraling down hill. Maybe I'm PMSing and this is a good sign...I dunno, I guess we will see.
I have had the day to myself today, Mr. Wonderful is at work and Doodle is at her great-grandmas. At first I was looking forward to the alone time, but now...... I just feel lonely.
So Mr. Wonderful has gotten a new job. He will start on Sept. 19th. This will be a good thing. He is kinda at a stand still at his current job and the new one is in a higher position, making more money, and has the opportunity to continue to move up. This also means new health insurance.
Now, with all of this new information, where do I go from here?? This is the part I'm having a hard time trying to figure out. There are a couple of options.
1) stop taking all meds and get ready to start trial in October.
2) continue taking Met and try some herbal stuff I've been reading about. Try this natural route for a few months. This would allow us to see what the new insurance would cover (if anything). The clinical trial will be going on until 2013 so I can always try it after the 1st of the year.
3) Contact RE office, set appt and see how much it will cost (an arm and a leg, I'm sure).
I dunno. I'm stuck. I don't want to do anything that is going to be counter-productive, and I don't want to waste time, but I'm not sure that an RE is the best way to go either. I would much rather do everything I can with out using up all of financial resources. We need to have something left for when we finally do get pregnant. Going to an RE will undoubtedly be expensive. It would not be very good to spend everything we have to get a baby and then not be able to afford to take care of it when it got here. I'm probably just being over dramatic here....like I said I am feeling very emotional today.
I guess I should go and start thinking about it and stop being such a drama queen....
I went to the OB yesterday to talk about the next step and how the last 3 months had gone. I got some good news and some not so good news. I will start with the positive....
The Metformin is WORKING!!! I have lost 15 pounds!!! So exciting. I didn't really think it was doing much so when I got on the scale and saw what it said I was elated!!! So much so that when they took my blood pressure it was too high. I had to take a few breaths and calm down for them to take it again. Thankfully it was back to normal a few minutes later. The Dr. said that another sign that it was working was that I got AF all on my own last month!
More good news is that she said I can do the clinical trial. But she would rather see me go to an RE. She said that since I want to get pregnant...like yesterday... my best option for making that happen would be to see an RE. Time wise I can understand that....financial wise I can't do it. Insurance won't cover it.
Bad news is that I'm not pregnant now. I haven't been that emotional this cycle, until today. I have been crying off and on all day. I'm not really sure why, I didn't expect for it to be positive since my temps had been dropping the last few days, but hearing the nurse say that my results were less than 1 and I am definitely not pregnant sent my emotions spiraling down hill. Maybe I'm PMSing and this is a good sign...I dunno, I guess we will see.
I have had the day to myself today, Mr. Wonderful is at work and Doodle is at her great-grandmas. At first I was looking forward to the alone time, but now...... I just feel lonely.
So Mr. Wonderful has gotten a new job. He will start on Sept. 19th. This will be a good thing. He is kinda at a stand still at his current job and the new one is in a higher position, making more money, and has the opportunity to continue to move up. This also means new health insurance.
Now, with all of this new information, where do I go from here?? This is the part I'm having a hard time trying to figure out. There are a couple of options.
1) stop taking all meds and get ready to start trial in October.
2) continue taking Met and try some herbal stuff I've been reading about. Try this natural route for a few months. This would allow us to see what the new insurance would cover (if anything). The clinical trial will be going on until 2013 so I can always try it after the 1st of the year.
3) Contact RE office, set appt and see how much it will cost (an arm and a leg, I'm sure).
I dunno. I'm stuck. I don't want to do anything that is going to be counter-productive, and I don't want to waste time, but I'm not sure that an RE is the best way to go either. I would much rather do everything I can with out using up all of financial resources. We need to have something left for when we finally do get pregnant. Going to an RE will undoubtedly be expensive. It would not be very good to spend everything we have to get a baby and then not be able to afford to take care of it when it got here. I'm probably just being over dramatic here....like I said I am feeling very emotional today.
I guess I should go and start thinking about it and stop being such a drama queen....
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