Drs appt

So I had my 1st u/s this past Tuesday and then my Dr's appt that afternoon after lunch. At the u/s we found out that I'm not nearly as far along as they thought.  I was 5wks 5 days, 6 wks 2 days today, which doesn't surprise me at. I have PCOS and the fact that I ovulated at all on my own is a miracle.

The u/s tech was very nice. At one point she turned on the sound and we heard a heart beat, but she didn't say anything, so I figured It was just mine. I didn't think we would have been able to hear it so early, but atleast I got to see him. She gave me a couple of pictures and told me to go have lunch and come back to see the doctor. Red Robin, here we come!! lol!!

Then I go for my appt. The Dr. was saying everything looked great on the u/s and how surprised she was that we got to hear the heart beat!! I was like "WHAT?!?" That was the baby's?? She laughed and said that it was 92 beats per min, which is low but that is just because it is still so early. She said she normally never hears one before the middle of the 6th week. So with that, everything was going GREAT!!

Then we discussed my pregnancy with DD 10 years ago which was premature, 7 1/2 weeks. We also discussed the laser surgery I had on my cervix when I was 18 for dysplaysia. 

Because of these issues, and PCOS, I am considered very high risk. I will be having u/s every 3-4 weeks. At 16 weeks I have to see a special doctor and they will measure my cervix. I will definitely have to start giving my self shots of progesterone in wk 16 thru wk 35, and worse case scenario I will have to have a stitch put in to keep my cervix closed. But she is going to do everything possible to keep this baby in here as long as possible!! I love my Doctor!! All in All a great appt and I feel sooo much better after knowing that I got hear his heart beat!!!! 

Wish me luck and...PRAY!!

So yesterday morning hormones were raging and I woke up extremely....*happy* with Mr. Wonderful, if you catch my drift. After an early morning *rendezvous* I went to the bathroom as usual. What did I see?? The worst thing ever when you are pregnant...blood!! I know it is totally normal but it is still frightening. I waited a few minutes and went back to the bathroom and this time it was heavier and brighter. I called my Dr's office and paged the on-call physician. She finally returned my call and I told her everything. Of course she said the same thing that was going through my mind already. Then I asked if I should go to the hospital and instead of a reassuring response she said, "There is no point, we can't do anything and you are too early to have an u/s. Just wait for you appt. on Tuesday."

Not very comforting at all!!! Not too mention, presumptuous and wrong. She didn't even ask how far along I was. She didn't even realize that my appt was for an u/s. If I can have one on Tues, I'm positive I could have one Sunday.

Nevertheless, I called my Momma. Who I always call when I need help. She told me that the Dr was right about it  being completely normal and I just needed to relax and take it easy, but if I started to bleed heavier to go to the hospital and demand to be seen. So, I stayed on the couch all day. I have continued to spot since then, but it got lighter and today was only slightly brown, and recently nothing.  Hopefully, this is good news.

But what did I do all day, today?? Sit on the couch and torture myself by reading hundreds of stories of miscarriages in the first trimester. So now I am just scared and preparing my self for the worst.

I am torn between thinking a) God did not make me wait this long for a baby to just take it away and everything is fine and I am just stressing for no reason.
b) My body has fought me for the last 7 years, why would it stop fighting me know?? (STUPID PCOS)

So my appt is at 12:00 tomorrow for an U/S and then meet with the Dr. and 2:00. Wish me luck and please keep me and my family in your prayers.

Still Positive!!

So this morning I woke up extra early and POAS again.... And it was still POSITIVE!!!!

I called and made an appt. with the Dr.  I go to the local office tomorrow for a pregnancy confirmation. Then next Tuesday, April 24th for my first U/S and Dr. visit at the office an hour away.

It is still so surreal. I have waited for this for so long, I can't believe it is real.

It's Positive!!!!!

That's right... it's POSITIVE!!!!!  I haven't been on in a while because I haven't really had anything to write about.  I haven't been taking any meds, or charting, or anything fertility related. I had been keeping track of my cycles and they weren't perfect but they were much more regular than before. My last cycle started on Feb 28th... I was supposed to start (if I was normal) the first week of April and when I didn't, I just figured my body was being stupid again.

According to the computer's calculations I am 7 weeks pregnant and due on Dec 4, 2012.

I know some one will ask, "didn't you know you were pregnant or have any symptoms?"

Of course I did, I just didn't think they were symptoms at the time. Such as, two weeks ago I was having the most bizarre dreams and even woke up at one point and was crying (I thought it was due some drinks I had the night before). Last week my sinuses were so bad that there was blood (although they hadn't done that since I was preggo with DD, I just figured the pollen was really bad). Then I have been really tired (I figured it was because I had been doing so much gardening). The last few days I have had a sour feeling in my stomach, a little cramping, and really sore breasts (I just figured AF was on her way). Last night, after DH and I did the deed, I had a little spotting and figured AF would be here this morning.

 When she didn't show I decided to pick up a test on my way to pick up the boy I babysit. I wasn't expecting it to be positve (becuase it never has been). While sitting in the driveway waiting for his bus I really had to pee so I went in the house (it's my besties house and I have a key).

Right away that line turned blue!!!! I don't think it was even that fast when I found out about DD!!

I was sooo excited I had to tell someone but I was all alone.. who could I tell. It was something I wanted to share with DH over the phone so....I called my momma....She was so excited and started crying!!!

Then I came home and told DH and DD... They are both so happy. DH had to go to the ABC store and get a bottle of his favorite American Honey.

Even though we know it's not official and we are not the "safe" period, we have told...... EVERYONE!!! I don't care... after waiting 7 1/2 years to see two lines show up...just the possibility is enough to share!!!

So I guess you will be seeing more of me now that i have something to write about again.

Oh, i almost forgot.. another reason why I have been so busy.. we pulled DD out of school right before Christmas break and have been homeschooling ever since. We love it and I am so thankful that my husband supports me and everything I do. DD had blossomed since taking her out and we have actually grown so much closer in our relationship.